As I was in my twenties and doing the practical years in medical studies, I learned to know a very prominent person. He was professor in internal medicine and was head of the university clinic of the University of Amsterdam. The clinic was situated in the heart of the city - it isn't there now anymore - and as beginning doctors we had the feeling that we were there, where the action is. Here worked professor Borst who taught the 'Krebs-cyclus', the oxygenation of the blood, who was followed by a younger man. He is this prominent person I mentioned above. He was a great scientist, a good teacher, but above all I learned to know him as a true human being, a doctor with a spiritual vision on the human being and a moral point of view in medicine. I was young and only felt these capacities, without clearly knowing. But I was so impressed by this prudent, moral, modest, learned person that I saw in him a kind of example of a real, true doctor. I also perceived that he was an abstract thinker and that his moral point of view was not part of thinking, but belonged to another world that gave impetus to his medical practice though.
As I was in my forties I published my first book, 'Seek the light that rises in the west'. I had no father anymore to give a first copy to, but there were two older men to whom I wanted to give this book. One of the two was this professor who was retired, and still lived in Amsterdam.
His reaction was very kind, he called me by telephone and we learned to know each other personally, and became true friends in the following years. He always visited my seminars in Amsterdam, was a prominent participant there. Early in the morning he came on his bicycle and sat between the other participants as if he were a student... He enjoyed my way of giving a lecture, called it a 'tour de force'.
He told us about his spiritual ideas, about his belief in God. For him God was a being that cannot be approached by the human being. I recognized in his view the ideas of the scholastic Duns Scotus (1266 - 1308), that the will of God is a will completely different from the human will and unknowable to the human being. So we had quite different ideas about God. But this didn't have any effect on the growing friendship. And he admitted gradually that this 'tour the force' of thinking that I developed in the seminars, gave him a kind of trust that the human being is able to understand the will of God, but only if we unfold all our possible forces to think. In the wonderful book about scholastics from Prof. Josef Pieper we can find the following words:
'In the thoughts of Duns we find for the first time, so it seems, this paradox twosome that will be a kind of model in the time that comes after him. I mean: that the demand for an almost humanly impossible, absolutely compelling obviousness is connected to a resignation that is almost matching a sacrifice in relation to the knowledge of 'causes'.
Then the change of the millennium came. The passing through from the old year to a new one makes me think of this event. The pure but abstract thinking of the professor was unable to think that it makes a difference if it is 31th of December 1999, or the 1st of January 2000. For him it was just one day passing over to the next, just as every day passes over to the next.
So at the end of the year we could ask ourselves the question: How do I perceive this ending of an old year? The old year is worn out and has nothing to give us anymore - and the new one has no events in it yet, it will bring us many things, some that we will have to undergo peacefully, others that we can bring about ourselves in freedom. But the question is: Does it make any difference if we go from - let me say - the 18th of august over to the 19th of august, or if we go from December 31 to January 1?
Johannes Duns Scotus (1266 - 1308), a Franciscan friar.
(Johannes Scotus Eriugena lived earlier, 815 -877, he was an Irish theologian and a neo-platonic philosopher.)
The calendar of the soul in the week of New Year's Eve:Devoted to revelation of the spirit
I gain light of the World-being.
Power of thinking increases clarifying
To give myself to me
And the feeling of the self loosens itself
awakening from the power of the thinker.
An Geistesoffenbarung hingegeben
Gewinne ich des Weltenwesens Licht.
Gedankenkraft, sie wächst
Sich klärend mir mich selbst zu geben,
Und weckend löst sich mir
Aus Denkermacht das Selbstgefühl.
The wise old being and the newborn... by Mieke Mosmuller